one day, i wanna get self-confidence in true meaning.
since i realized that I'm not pretty as i expected, always i feel like I'm not enough.
and the largest issue is i couldn't accept that i have very negative thinking about myself.
because its been my wish to be “healthy person” in every way.
but i am not obviously.
the funny point is I'm really good at faking to be “healthy girl” I'm totally a mess and disaster though.
but at least i didn't hurt my friends for selfish reasons, i did to my ex though.
I'm okay even I'm not healthy, but its my problem and business, i really don't want to make my friends to worry about me and feel like insecure for no reason.
so i just keep faking it. i don't think its bad. its best choice i can.
and i can stay strong. even its faking, it could be real one.